Dear friend,

I am going to adopt Kir's new 'laugh-cry' verb. Its inspired and exactly how thinking of you works. Often I am gazing, staring in to space when I should be doing my studies, thinking about what you would make of something or rather. I continue to seek your thoughts, they make me smile. Its a happiness but a sad-happiness too, longing that you were still here, just a Skype away

Anyway chica mia, I heard about this guy the other day on the radio and wanted to mail you immediately ... you would have loved it!

http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/health-14931681

that dumb movie

I was watching an episode of mad men and out of nowhere I thought of you and began to weep and weep and weep. In that moment I realized I miss you so so much and I just couldn't stop crying and then I was remembering that stupid movie I made us goto in September in New York and you said "someone better not die of cancer in this film" and I said "of course not!" and then someone bloody well did!!! And we both left the cinema before the end of the movie and had a good cry on the steps while waiting for Vanessa to finish watching it. Remembering that made me laugh and cry so now I'm laugh crying and missing you but at the same time remembering you so clearly its like you're here for this moment, I can see your expression and you're laugh crying too. Laugh crying is funny. You were always pretty funny. I love you and I miss you. :-( :-)